Nonstop thinker

Yeah right. I named my blog ‘nonstop thinker’ but I don’t usually post my works here. Maybe because I know that people I know can read or will soon read this. E what’s the point of this post? LA LUNGS =)))) masabi lang na nag tumblr XD hahahahaha

I am so lost. I wear a lot of mask and no one knows the real face i have beneath all of them. They’re all the faces I wanted to become but none of them suits who I really am. That’s the big question, who really am I? I do not want to become the person this world dictates me to be. I do not want to be a cliche in this society. I wanna be me, simply me. I wear a lot of mask, and I am so lost.

Love is spontaneous. For some it may be happiness, for some it may be pain. It may be unconditional, it may be selfish. It may be accepting, it may be demanding. It’s like a ball that bounces from one place to another, from one definition to the next.   Nobody can really give an exact definition of love. It is not a science that has a single concrete definition but rather a philosophy that can only be defined through a personal encounter and involvement :)

ARYT. May assignment na ko sa English haha :D

It’s been seven years since the last time I went to the airport. I remembered the time when it was my Mom who have had to leave abroad for work. At that moment, I saw my Dad crying. He took the baggage out of the car, put it in the cart, hugged and kissed my Mom, said goodbye and went immediately inside the car. I did the same but my brother stayed for a while and cried. My Dad called him up and we left. The car stopped at a free space, I looked at him and saw him wiping off the tears from his eyes. I saw the pain of sacrifice, for he knows that it’ll take years before we’ll see her again. 

When people leaves, it’s like they take a part of you. Living life without those people you got used to is hard…at first. But when you start focusing on other things and not on the sadness you feel, you’ll know that there is more to life. You just have to pray for them and wish them every happiness :)

Tarzan lives half naked,

Cinderella comes home at midnight,

Aladdin is the king of thieves,

Pinocchio lies all the time,

Batman drives at 200 mph,

Sleeping Beauty is lazy,

and Snow White lives with 7 guys.

- We shouldn’t be surprised when kids misbehave, they get it from their story book.

This one’s really really adorable :”>

No more breaking. No more hurting. No more expecting. No more waiting.

Tired of everything.

I act like everything’s fine. I laugh like nothing happened. I smile like nothing bothers me, but deep inside I feel miserable. I feel wasted. I feel desperate. Desperate to bring everything back, to put you and me together again. Every night, thoughts of you haunts me. Remember when we used to drink coffee? Remember how we danced crazily whenever we hear music? Remember how we used to talk about each other’s religion and our own principles and beliefs? Remember how we used to chat secretly? Remember your fake laughs to my corny jokes? Remember how you tease me about my imperfections? Remember when we used to ride the bus and wish that we never get to our destination? Remember when we used to plan about our future as husband and wife? Remember when we used to be together? Remember when you used to be mine? 

Now I’m all alone. I thought I would be happy if I see you happy, but seeing you happy with someone else brings only pain and despair. I wanna stop my heart from breaking and shattering. I should learn to accept the fact that maybe we are not really meant for each other. But if God’s will, if we are really meant to be, in His time, we’ll meet again. 

Am feeling bored and tumblr is the only one who takes my boredom away. I get bored even with facebook so I deactivated my account. Yeah I know I promised that I’ll be posting pictures and thoughts after the 5-day camp, and I’m working on it already. I just need some more time. Well I guess I have a lot, I just don’t have the “kasipagan” to finish all of it :P

I missed my tumblr friends, we have a lot of catching up to do folks :*

clouds-above-my-bed asked: awwwww, it's okay:))
Mmm. anyway, enjoy the camp. We'll talk when you come back:)
hope you'll feel better after the camp:)

I was about to sleep but I can’t help but to open my account. haha! anw, Thanks Paula :* Good night >:D<

Left:Celine Middle: Chynn Right: Vichell

Photo by Mr. Gerard Gudes

Location: Dampalitan Island

This would probably be my last post for tonight. A picture of me together with my sisters.

I’ll be back by Saturday. Good night everyone and have a great week. And as for the camp, I’m sure it’ll be heaps of fun :) Be gold everyone.

I know I shouldn’t be the one giving title to this picture because I wasn’t the one who took it, t’s kuya Gerard, my soon to be brother-in-law, anyway…

I’ll be out for the whole week. I will surely miss tumblr. When I get back, I have lots of thoughts and pictures to post. But for now, I’ll just leave you with this picture and some of my thoughts about it.

Have you ever felt like shouting but there’s no voice coming out from your mouth? felt like writing but can’t seem to find the right words to express? Ever felt like crying but you just can’t? I don’t know why but I just feel incomplete at the moment. Every person needs time to be alone, to reflect and to find their selves. But in those times of loneliness, I realized that there is always this one person who would always be present, to caress and comfort you, to listen to every heartaches you have and most especially to love you…you just have to look up like this bird. Sing your heartaches out and surely you’ll be heard.

annacethesia-deactivated2011111 asked: Yeah, that's right :)) I want some tumblr friends too :))

I can be one :)

annacethesia-deactivated2011111 asked: Thanks! Thank you very much, i want to know you more, whats your name? BTW the picture in your post, is it you? She is incredibly beautiful :))

Aww. Thank you :)